too tired

Ive been thinking a lot about a lot of stuff. The thing is that now im too tired to remember everything. One of the things i thought about and spoke to a friend is that we're not money, we're people. I was so motivated after this chat with my friend, but some other stuff brought me down. Again. I need to work on my "i dont give a fuck about that".

Shit, I really need to do something with music in my life, i miss going to the Conservatoire and to the Choirs, the one in the Conservatoire and the other one which i went because i wanted to, haha that choir was full of old people, but i just didnt care, i was 17 and 18 and i wanted to sing, music is just perfect.
Right now im listening to a perfect masterpiece... Gustav Mahler's 5th Symphony. I miss being an almost full time musician.

au fer stern... jah au fer stern...

La vida

Life is beautiful, with all our mistakes, all of our efforts, all the pretty times, all our friends, family, good times, bad times, sad times, happy times... life's just beautiful. I believe we all can live our dreams, even though some mistakes make us dont live 'em, but this live chain makes us live other dreams, good dreams, and bad dreams. It doesnt matter, bad stuff make us grow up and give us a chance to learn a lot if we pay the right amount of attention. Life is beautiful, its a mixture of everything, good breakfasts, bad lunchs, frights, happiness, feeling sleepy without going to sleep, bad music during a the way home, good music in your bed, the hugs of your friends, the kisses of the loved one, homeworks (nobody likes em, but theyre just necessary, though), recess, rainy mornings, sunny afternoons, the cold of the night, dont going to sleep just because you spent your night talking to someone that needed you to hear him/her... Lifes beautiful, perfect, even with all the mistakes, bad times, its just perfect. We need to stop and smell the flowers and see the bunny-like clouds, to check that the city we we're born and we live in, and we say that it sucks, really has beautiful places, trees to sit by and read books, streets to walk by, people to chat with... not just bad stuff, violence. Life's beautiful... its beautiful, dont you think?

feeling proud

Every time i listen to Panama's National Anthem i feel very patriotic. I love our anthem. If im outside my country i could even cry. Even though i feel my country is kind of fucked up, people dont think too much before doing something, and theres a lot of corruption., and so many other stuff. Ah... and they honk too much hahaha, but im proud of being panamenian. I love the taste of the chicheme just made, love the taste of the tajadas de platano maduro that my grandma makes. I get very happy when i find out my mom cooked arroz con guandu y coco, and langostinos chombo style. I cannot live without having patacones for breakfast or for dinner. I love the fact that boths oceans are one hour away from each other, and the mountains and the beaches are less than one hour away from the city. I love to walk by Avenida Balboa... to run in Parque Omar, to take pictures in Casco Viejo, and play soccer with the kids, i love to hang out in the Calzada de Amador and buy ice creams, or rent a bike and go around... Im glad theres a canal i can go, sit and watch the biggest ships ive ever seen, and even wave to the guys in the ships and they wave back, its so close. Its good you can be in a boat heading to an island and see that a whale is beside, hanging out with us and saying "stop the F.A.T. (fucking aiesec talk)" in whale (thank you doris from nemo). We've got the most beautiful beaches, white sand, clear water, coral reefs... We had the oldest town in America... Weve got a really big rainforest... thats why we're only 3 millions in 75,517km2. Hey, we've got carnavales too, and veeeeeeeery good.
See? I love my country and our national anthem... its just the best.
Useless Fact: It was made by a spanish guy, haha, very panamenian anthem, but i love it, carajo